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Tuesday, March 22, 2011

I am my worst critic

Happy One Year Weight Watcher Birthday to ME! (and Mom and Meg too!)

Well, I can't say that I am here to share awesome news with you this week. I am actually really down (or just really frickin' pissed!) about my week.  I had the goal to hit the big 40 this week but it just didn't happen. I tracked everything, I worked out 4 times this week, and I went in feeling great. I hopped on the scale and...


Are you KIDDING ME? I wanted more that anything to just burst into tears.  This is the first week ever that I totally, completely thought I would lose.  And of course, everyone reminded me that week like this will "happen" and that maybe I was retaining water and so on...Luckily, my wonderful fiance texted me saying "Baby. Keep your head up. Next week will be better".  And then reminded me that it was "that time of the month" and next week the scale be my friend again.  After all of that said, I was still down in the dumps.  I know everyone is SO supportive but really....I AM MY WORST CRITIC.

My goal this week is NOT about loosing weight or exercising.  My goal this week is to STAY POSITIVE of my own self image.  I still look in the mirror and see a fat girl.  I FEEL good but I just don't see it.  I know that my weight loss is noticeable-Ive bought all new clothes! I am just not there yet.

This week I will be there.  I will look in the mirror and be proud.  I will look at me and say:
"Damn girl, keep it up!"

Here is a picture of me ONE YEAR AGO:
Here is me TODAY:
Tomorrow is a new day.


  1. Serina I cant believe how good you are doing, just think of all the changes you have made to live a happier life style! That is such an accomplishment in its own! I love reading your blog its so inspiring I actually made pasta with whole grain noodles after reading your blog, one step at a time! lol! You look beautiful!

  2. I Heart you. Next week we are on the scale together. I am proud of you.

  3. Plus, you and meg are my rocks and my inspiration! Xo

  4. Serina! Now that your cardio has improved, I can not stress how important adding weights and resistance into your routine is. Actually, I'm going to post EXACTLY why they're sooooo important today on my new blog :) I was shocked but it all totally makes sense when I look at the speed and maintenance of my own weight loss in the past 2 years. i'll send you the link when im done... maybe you can share it with WW???

  5. Doh! I finally go to post a comment in public and my dang computer eats it up! It's too hard to connect solely during the WW meeting. So, first things first - happy WW Bday! Second, if you are pissed, then be pissed. Honor your feelings and use that Pissed off energy to propel you forward. Neither of us hit our desired goal (scale-focused) and that's okay. It is what it is. I never imagined I would stick with this a year and I never envisioned meeting you. I am proud of you. You are so young and working so hard for your health, your family, and your life. Take that fuel from being pissed and push, push, push. I know you can do it! Remember, focus on what you really want and push aside what you want right now (chances are, what you want right now will not help you get to that big picture that you want most). Toodles - kick it sistah!